The Vision
I emerge through the door of a studio apartment. walking forward I sift through what is real and what's imaginary, my hand's wandering aimlessly around my body... sensing danger present. Unwilling I let myself venture into what would have been the biggest mistake I could have made.
My right hand meets a couch, leather... very worn. I can't see more than half a meter in front of me, so finding what I was looking for wouldn't be easy. I stumble my way through a mess of dirty clothes, dirty dishes and spoiled food. Searching for this goddess... was a task that I was thinking would seem impossible. But without me knowing I found out she was with me the entire journey. The person that's stuck by me the past year, not someone who's a thousand miles away.
I don't need someone so far away, someone no good for me... as much as I tell myself I love her, it just doesn't work. North and south poles if you will.
And as much as I've beaten myself up the past month over loving her. It's not right and no good, I've noticed I have something much better right here with me. And that makes everything okay for me.