How Not To Spend Your Summer
I've always wanted to write report on how I've spend my summer, and as much as I'd wish... no teach would ever assign one. The only reason I would like to is because I could map out what I'd accomplish, but with seeing how unexciting it would be compared to other people's it would make me strive to be a better me...
My summer consists or better yet, consisted of a strict schedule of:
Work < Home < Sleep < Rachelle < Repeat.
Which isn't to bad really, I mean I have me time, and some friend time. But there's nothing I can say I did to have THIS summer stand out to any others. I went to Warped Tour '09 yes, it was fun, cool, sweat, and rainy all that fine stuff. But all it did was get me to think, and honestly that's the last thing I want to do at the moment.
Because when I reflect on the day that was yesterday, I think about a certain person... and I shouldn't. But of course I can't stop thinking and it ruins my whole happy spirit. And however much I think and wonder about people.. the more and more I become disappointed in myself. Knowing I'll never be good enough for other people's standards. And the worst to me, not being able to change someone else's opinion on me...
As stupid as it sounds for some reason I'm having this whole big mental breakdown over something completely idiotic that I could easily stop. I guess, that I'm just not having a good day. whatever it is I'm sure it will pass.
Oh and also, happy 75th post to the GrizBlog. It's been a blast writing on this site the past 3 years.