Help For The Mind
I don't know why, but I always feel bad when I see someone sitting there miserable as hell, fighting for their life to get by unhurt... just looking for love.
It just makes me feel even worse, because I feel like I've been in the same situation. The only thing missing is how I should make these people feel better. should I be at aid at all hours of the night 24/7? Maybe I should just be there to talk to, sit there with them, and hold them in my arms? really it's confusing because I'm surrounded by it. People getting their hearts broken, it surrounds me. These people come to me for all the answers... I'm only human, but somehow it makes me seem perfect in their eyes.
But after that I get sucked into their problems... drinking, smoking, drugs, suicide, you name it I've stopped it. Then I have to go to sleep at night worrying about these people. Really I'm done worrying about them, I don't think people need the help if they ask you and then turn around and just drink more and more, on the verge of suicide until you call them and tell them how it's foolish, how they make somebody's life significant in some way.
Really, I think I'm done with it... but I can't just stop, I'd feel like a jerk. I guess people just need to learn to cope with their problems a little better? Or do I keep helping, this is a hard situation to be in.
Job Orientation tomorrow. Officially today now, but I hope I still have time to write and do all the things I love.