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Outside Writing

I didn't feel like taking the energy out of my life to actually write something new onto here, so I will just copy a little page I wrote in Algebra 2 today.

All day I've felt like punching a brick wall, just so I can get out of school. I want to go crazy, so I don't need worries, so I don't need people anymore. Mainly meaning, a certain girl. Whenever I see her, I'm ignored or forgotten, and frankly mentally tormented over it. I give her my hoodie to keep her warm, and safe. She wear someone else's, I save her a seat on the bes, she ignores it(the one day I could have I'm forgotten) I approach her locker, hoping for a hug, I'm walked away from.

It seems like all I'm getting is something out of reach, long distance if you will. *Deleted next sentence* I can't help beating myself up over this, due to not knowing if it's my emotional problems just toying with me, or if my loves not reciprocated. It's making me feel so terrible, I want out of everything in life, except the occasional WoW.

For whatever reason, she's having some sort of problem. Oh, wait, we can't talk about it. Due to my newly accepted "don't trust anyone policy," I can't help but think its got to be me somehow, whatever it may be: Another person(Hint: My main guess.), people being stupid(as always), and other stuff I dunno. Now, my hoodie, obviously not good enough to catch her tears lays on her floor. It wants exactly what I do, someone to love and care for it and a warm embrace never leave my reach... Something that seems to be null and void in my life, something that's now unneeded.
This situation, it just seems uncanny. Something I've felt before...