Help is On Its Way!
Seasons are going by quickly, making my head spin from all the frustration. I can't hold in my anger anymore, along with any other emotions I would feel.
Every time I feel strongly sad, mad, joyous, or furious I will make it a point to express these emotions very seriously. I almost cry in the middle of classes for no reason, and when a shot of anger blows through me I feel like I need to have a certain man/womans blood on my hands. Either that or a bullet between their eyes would suffice. I've been asked many times if I would ever feel like hurting my self, it's not going to happen... EVER!
I went to my pediatrician to see if I should go to a psychiatrist or not. Well, it turns out I need to go to a councilor for my emotion ups and downs, which I believe to be Bipolar Disorder. Plus a neurologist for my migraines, which I get 3-4 a week. A simple MRI will be done to see if I have a brain tumor I guess.
I was called "a real man" for my ability to approach my parents and doctors with this whole situation. I was overwhelmed with joy when I found out that I would have someone to speak to! Yes, I'm not going to be afraid to admit it... I wrote 3 death threats in my off line journal, though I can't say it was the beset of times I could have wrote it, I did... and there's not stopping it now, not killing... I mean my writing.
Oh, and gratz to me for the 50th post!
James
well dude, I hope you don't have nothing wrong with your brain. catch ya later.
posted on 01/03/2008 at 09:21