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CrossRoads

I've never felt more confused than I have the past week...

On the road of life I've had many encounters with "crossroads," these crossroads have never been as difficult as they have been the past couple months. Such as: People always mock my life style, calling me a nerd, geek, anime freak, video game nerd and the list goes on. I've always thought "Do I change for the sake of popularity, or do I stay different?"

But lately I've had large problems to overcome and I don't think I've chosen the right path. I've recently started re-attending my local library's anime club. A lot of fun stuff happens there, DDR contests, Guitar Hero, kissing and just fun socializing. I have grown attached to the people there, and finally sum up the courage to ask one of them out. But I have felt unconfident in my decision, and have no idea what to do, I like this girl but don't know if I want to ruin the friendship we have.

Not only am I stuck with this problem, but there's more. My other friend is one of those people whose mood changes often. She is always feeling down about her life feeling like no one loves her, which in turn I do. I love one person, but in turn I have to leave a relationship to do so. I just don't know how to approach this whole conundrum.

I thank you all for listening to my feelings and confused state. And now I will go face the dreaded CrossRoads.