Unfriend
I like this option for a social networking site.
I don't know why I don't write any more. Does it keep me sane? Probably. Then why avoid it? I must prefer to remain insane....
I don't know why, but I haven't been in the mood to write for the past year. My Moleskine has fallen behind and so has my blog. I got the inspiration to come back to The Grizblog last night. I had some pretty strange dreams, and I thought to myself, "Why don't I share these with the world? Sure they're weird, but someone may get a kick out of them."
I emerge through the door of a studio apartment. walking forward I sift through what is real and what's imaginary, my hand's wandering aimlessly around my body... sensing danger present. Unwilling I let myself venture into what would have been the biggest mistake I could have made.
I've always wanted to write report on how I've spend my summer, and as much as I'd wish... no teach would ever assign one. The only reason I would like to is because I could map out what I'd accomplish, but with seeing how unexciting it would be compared to other people's it would make me strive to be a better me...
Summer always brings out the worst in me, whether it be sleeping 12 hours a day, late night gaming sessions, and a looming sense of grogginess. My sleep schedule is knocked off of track and I have time to waste annoying people over the Internet.
For some reason I feel my life is having phases of good and bad, often times it feels bad. But... what it seems like is other peoples emotions make me feel succumbed to manifest my own emotions in a particular way. Which should in no way be the truth...
Almost 24 hours now... this feeling I have, hits me off and on the whole time. A long cry, thinking things through, wanting to be someone to save him, and losing my brother. It 's all so terrifying, the fact that... that just the other day, he was on my floor, playing King Kong. talking about how he's going to end up bumming off me sleeping on my couch as an adult.